Start on writing, but also reorganize everything

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+date: 2019-08-16
+weight: 6
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+A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up.
+
+My interest in furry wound down a bit in university. I'd burned myself a bit too hard, hurt too many people, grew too jaded to take part. I still prowled around the usual haunts on the MUCKs, still poked my head in FFF, still looked at all the art, [but my heart wasn't in it anymore](https://adjectivespecies.com/2012/03/21/makyos-kaddish/).
+
+> There was a reason behind this. There were people behind this.
+
+Well, true. I don't know how to square that with...well, a lot of things.
+
+> You don't know how to square that with how you felt about those people at the time.
+
+That's one aspect, yes. I also don't know how to square that with the fact that I was growing too jaded in a lot more than just furry. I grew jaded at school. I grew jaded at work. I struggled with my relationships. I struggled.
+
+> You struggled with gender.
+
+Well, yes, but I wasn't quite ready to admit that, yet.
+
+> You struggled with self harm.
+
+Yes.
+
+> You struggled with the intersections, the interstices, and the liminal spaces.
+
+I was going to write about [a][s]. Where are you taking me?
+
+> Straight homeward to your symbol-essences.
+
+Shall I not die, then?
+
+> Isn't that the point of writing?
+
+I'm pretty sure all our names are writ on water at this point.
+
+> Come now. You wanted to be Keats when you grew up.
+
+You're in a mood.
+
+> You're in a mood.
+
+Fine.
+
+Where are you taking me?
+
+> Let [a][s] speak for [a][s]. Let yourself speak for yourself.
+
+<a class="pulse" href="/furry/margaras">Okay</a>.