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book/content/furry/younes.tex

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 \label{furry:younes}
+\index{Furry!fursoñas!Younes|(}
 \begin{paracol}{2}
   \begin{leftcolumn}
 
-\noindent Back in 2011 and 2012, I started to really loathe being me.
+\noindent Back in 2011 and 2012, I started to really loathe being me.\index{Gender}
 
 \begin{ally}
 `Started'?
@@ -14,14 +15,14 @@ You started hating a lot more than that.
 \end{ally}
 I started hating my brain and my body. I started hating the coarseness of me. I started hating all my angles. I started hating my hair and my face and my genitals and my lies.
 
-I was lying to JD. I was lying to work. I was lying to Tyson. I was lying to everyone who saw me online as a girl, and I was lying to everyone who saw me online as a boy. I was in a liminal place where I could tell no one the truth.
+I was lying to James. I was lying to work. I was lying to Tyson. I was lying to everyone who saw me online as a girl, and I was lying to everyone who saw me online as a boy. I was in a liminal place where I could tell no one the truth.\index{Relationships!James}\index{Relationships!Tyson}
 
 \begin{ally}
 Not even yourself.
 \end{ally}
 Not yet, at least.
 
-There were a few easy steps to take, of course. I saw a doctor who got me on meds.
+There were a few easy steps to take, of course. I saw a doctor who got me on meds.\index{Mental health!medication}
 
 \begin{ally}
 Tell me about suicide.
@@ -38,7 +39,7 @@ I started taking my own meds alongside those the doctor gave me. I started the s
 \begin{ally}
 Go back. Before that.
 \end{ally}
-Before that, I changed how I presented. I changed Makyo to be genderless. Started going by `it' pronouns. And I made Younes.
+Before that, I changed how I presented. I changed Makyo to be genderless. Started going by `it' pronouns. And I made Younes.\index{Furry!fursoñas!Makyo}
 
 Younes was a means for me to no longer lie. Or at least knock the severity of the lies down a few notches.
 
@@ -123,14 +124,14 @@ Both, I suppose. It was a symptom of this growing unease, this feeling of being
 A rangefinder camera uses a ghostly yellow image overlaid atop the real image when you look through the viewfinder. When you turn the ring of the lens to focus, that ghost slowly shifts to align with the object you want to be in focus.
 
 \begin{ally}
-Your view of yourself was slowly slipping from focus. Matthew was starting to lose coherency.
+Your view of yourself was slowly slipping from focus. Matthew was starting to lose coherency.\index{The Death of Matthew}
 \end{ally}
 And Younes was one of the means of slowly dragging that back into focus.
 
 It doesn't matter how right or wrong it was of me to use this tool. It does matter how wrong I was in the mechanics of the scenario.
 
 \begin{ally}
-You hid him. You covered him up and kept him from the world. You interacted with a completely different crowd, as Younes than you did as Makyo or Macchi. When that overlapped with Rikky, it was awkward.
+You hid him. You covered him up and kept him from the world. You interacted with a completely different crowd, as Younes than you did as Makyo or Macchi. When that overlapped with Rikky, it was awkward.\index{Relationships!Rikoshi}\index{Furry!fursoñas!Makyo}\index{Furry!fursoñas!Macchi}
 \end{ally}
 It was, and not because of the altersex part. We interacted that way with Makyo as altersex, too, amd that didn't feel awkward at all. It felt like cheating to engage with the world as Younes. It felt shameful.
 
@@ -167,9 +168,10 @@ And it cost you.
 Yes. It cost me friends. It cost me sanity. It made me jerk away from the path I'd started down. Made me jerk out of focus again.
 
 \begin{ally}
-Let's talk about TIASAP.
+Let's talk about TIASAP.\index{Gender!TIASAP}
 \end{ally}
 Yes.
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 \end{paracol}
+\index{Furry!fursoñas!Younes|)}