- ( ... ) - O - o - . -_____,,,_^..^_,,,_____ -__|____|____|____|____ -____|____|____|____|__ -- - diff --git a/content/gender/04.md b/content/gender/04.md new file mode 100644 index 0000000..c07537d --- /dev/null +++ b/content/gender/04.md @@ -0,0 +1,26 @@ +--- +date: 2019-11-01 +weight: 4 +--- + +> So were you? + +Was I what? + +> Fucked. Were you fucked? + +I think that's still to-be-determined. + +> You don't seem fucked. I mean, life is harder now, I suppose. You've got to contend with a minority identity you never particularly wanted. + +There's no denying that. I don't quite like that this is what I'm stuck with, but I do alright with it. I try to keep going as best I can, and I try to help others as much as I can along the way. Robin likes to call me a "trans psychopomp", but I suspect that's due in part to the word 'psychopomp' is really fun to say. I would say that she falls under that title as well. + +> Do you see yourself as one? Do you see yourself as someone who guides others? + +Not particularly. I feel like I'm doing everything by accident. I feel like I'm accidentally visibly trans. Like I can't help but be visibly trans, like that's what I've got to work with. That that helps others long the way is still something of a mystery. A pleasant one, but a mystery. + +Still, the least I could do is not hurt, might as well put in the effort to be a help. + +> Do you think that others see you as a resource? + +Perhaps, though that has me worried. That's an awful lot of responsibility. diff --git a/content/gender/05.md b/content/gender/05.md index 860d598..0480d1f 100644 --- a/content/gender/05.md +++ b/content/gender/05.md @@ -2,25 +2,3 @@ date: 2019-11-01 weight: 5 --- - -> So were you? - -Was I what? - -> Fucked. Were you fucked? - -I think that's still to-be-determined. - -> You don't seem fucked. I mean, life is harder now, I suppose. You've got to contend with a minority identity you never particularly wanted. - -There's no denying that. I don't quite like that this is what I'm stuck with, but I do alright with it. I try to keep going as best I can, and I try to help others as much as I can along the way. Robin likes to call me a "trans psychopomp", but I suspect that's mostly because the word 'psychopomp' is really fun to say. - -> Do you see yourself as one? Do you see yourself as someone who guides others? - -Not particularly. I feel like I'm doing everything by accident. I feel like I'm accidentally visibly trans. Like I can't help but be visibly trans, like that's what I've got to work with. That that helps others long the way is still something of a mystery. - -Still, the least I could do is not hurt, might as well put in the effort to be a help. - -> Do you think that others see you as a resource? - -Perhaps, though that has me worried. That's an awful lot of responsibility. diff --git a/content/gender/surgery/02.md b/content/gender/surgery/02.md index 843850f..0cbf37b 100644 --- a/content/gender/surgery/02.md +++ b/content/gender/surgery/02.md @@ -15,3 +15,7 @@ I say six weeks because that, specifically is when I got a call from my surgeon' Yeah, fuck. Thus began a two-week scramble to find new doctors to write new letters to send in to the surgeon's office. After all, I'd moved states since I'd gotten the first letters written, and even if I hadn't, one of the doctors who had written one had retired. I wound up getting four additional letters, as there were some questions about the validity of some of the therapists' statements and credentials. + +> So it felt real then? + +Yes, coming to terms with the fact that the surgery might have been cancelled is what made it seem as though it was something real and tangible. Real things can be cancelled. Real things can be destroyed. diff --git a/content/gender/surgery/03.md b/content/gender/surgery/03.md index 453e2b4..ca7998a 100644 --- a/content/gender/surgery/03.md +++ b/content/gender/surgery/03.md @@ -1,4 +1,5 @@ --- +date: 2019-11-01 ---