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content/burnout/01.md

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 How did I get here?
 
+> How did you get where?
+
+How did I get here? How did I get to the point where I loathe my job? How did I get to the point where I loathe my life, but mostly only when I'm working?
+
 > Start from the beginning.
 
 Which beginning?
@@ -33,7 +37,7 @@ But this was something new, I was given a list of things that they wanted to be
 
 > And then?
 
-And then...well, I don't know. And then the tasks got smaller and smaller, and the clients grumpier and grumpier about more and more inconsequential things. They needed twice as many new features done in half the time and could we work the weekends?
+And then...well, I don't know. And then the tasks got smaller and smaller, and the clients grumpier and grumpier about more and more inconsequential things. They needed twice as many new features done in half the time and could we work the weekends? After all, they had their QA people sleeping in the office in cots in the bathrooms. Shouldn't we do the same?
 
 At some point that must have changed, but it all changed so gradually as to not be noticeable.
 

content/burnout/02.md

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 That's one of those surprisingly difficult questions. I can't point to a day or week when things went bad, nor even a month. At some point, I just looked around me, at my office and my coworkers and my job and said, "I hate all of this."
 
+> When did you notice it, then?
+
+Does "<a class="pulse" href="/self-harm/suicide">when I tried to kill myself</a>" count?
+
+> Not my department.
+
 I spent a lot of time trying to fix it. I spent a lot of time changing little bits about my day or my desk or my tasks, and there was just not much that could put a dent into that mixture of loathing and anxiety that surrounded my day.
 
 > And eventually, you just dumped the whole thing in favor of something else.

content/gender/01.md

@@ -15,7 +15,7 @@ Well, I suppose I started by talking about furry, which led to me talking about
 
 Why are you trying to get me to do this?
 
-> Because we must take care to place ourself in our time: now that we are done with writing about one of the hardest parts of our lives. And we must take special care that we locate ourselves within our place: having come at this conversation about gender through self-harm.
+> Because we must take care to place ourselves in our time: now that we are done with writing about one of the hardest parts of our lives. And we must take special care that we locate ourselves within our place: having come at this conversation about gender through self-harm.
 
 Then yes. We got here through furry, which opened up the path before us to even begin exploring gender, and then we finally reached this topic through that of self-harm, wherein I came face to face with so many aspects of my body. It's so easy to disappear within one's own head for days, weeks, months at a time, but one eventually comes to terms with the fact that one is stuck with a body, and thus one must deal with it. Live with it and inhabit it.
 

content/gender/02.md

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-I stand by the fact that not every trans, nonbinary, or queer person experiences gender through a negative lens. Dysphoria is not a requirement for being trans. It has to be the case that there be a positive way to experience gender, or transition would be simply an exercise in futility. There has to be a flip side. There has to be gender euphoria.
+I stand by the fact that not every trans, non-binary, or queer person experiences gender through a negative lens. Dysphoria is not a requirement for being trans. It has to be the case that there be a positive way to experience gender, or transition would be simply an exercise in futility. There has to be a flip side. There has to be gender euphoria.
 
-> There has to be the little thrill of typing `morph female` and being able to interact with the world around you --- even if that's only in the instance of a furry text-base roleplay game --- as something other, something truer. There has to be that even when you still enjoy the body you've got.
+> There has to be the little thrill of typing `morph female` and being able to interact with the world around you --- even if that's only in the instance of a furry text-base role-play game --- as something other, something truer. There has to be that even when you still enjoy the body you've got.
 
 Or are at least okay with it being yours on a day-to-day basis, yes.
 
@@ -33,7 +33,7 @@ Yes, but I wrote it two days later than I wrote about Younes.
 
 Can you point?
 
-> Don't dodge this. I'm pointing at the fact that you came at gender through furry, then through self-harm, and yet this quote, this realization of "oh, shit, I might actually be trans", is all the way on the other side of that goofy map you make, and from there, you headed into talking about your dad.
+> Are you looking at my finger, or the moon? Don't dodge this. I'm pointing at the fact that you came at gender through furry, then through self-harm, and yet this quote, this realization of "oh, shit, I might actually be trans", is all the way on the other side of that goofy map you make, and from there, you headed into talking about your dad.
 
 So?
 

content/gender/05.md

@@ -13,7 +13,7 @@ It's a good direction.
 
 > So. Do you see yourself as a woman?
 
-No. I'm a giant lump. I'm a baritone. I barely have breasts. I don't pass.
+No. I'm a giant lump. I'm a rectangle. I'm more than six feet tall. I'm a baritone. I barely have breasts. I don't pass.
 
 > Do you want to?
 

content/gender/06.md

@@ -45,7 +45,7 @@ To have someone say, "I just see you as a woman" is to have a portion of my iden
 
 > You just also learned that other trans women are as apt to do the same.
 
-Yes. I left chats. I stopped talking with some people. I didn't feel welcome, no matter how friendly folks were.
+Yes. I left chats. I stopped talking with some people. I didn't feel welcome, no matter how friendly folks were. Where I had been leaning heavily on Maddy, that cis-female character, I started drifting back towards Makyo, towrads portraying the explicitly transfeminine.
 
 > All because they believed you were something that you weren't.
 

content/gender/08.md

@@ -7,7 +7,7 @@ You are playing devil's advocate because you are handily ignoring genderqueer pe
 
 > I am, yes. So, explain.
 
-We, as gender-nonconforming people, talk often about gender dysphoria. There is a flipside to that. There is gender euphoria. There is that sense of rightness when you glimpse the you who was meant to be in the mirror, rather than the you who you've been trained to be.
+We, as gender-nonconforming people, talk often about gender dysphoria. There is a flip side to that. There is gender euphoria. There is that sense of rightness when you glimpse the you who was meant to be in the mirror, rather than the you who you've been trained to be.
 
 I look in the mirror and I see a woman sometimes, and that makes me happy. I look in the mirror and I see a man sometimes, and that makes me unhappy.
 
@@ -17,7 +17,7 @@ I look in the mirror and I see a woman sometimes, and that makes me happy. I loo
 
 I don't fit in cisgender spaces. I never will. I fit in trans spaces. That's the 'square hole', as it were. that's where I belong.
 
-> Are you not genderqueer, then?
+> Are you not gender-queer, then?
 
 Am I? So be it. That is not mutually exclusive with being a trans woman.