I enjoyed it until I didn't. It turned into a grind, it turned
depressing. I started getting angry. I tried to commit suicide --- we'll
get to that later, just to preempt you distracting me.
You know me too well.
Do I?
Don't lose focus. You left UHG for Canonical, and started all over
again.
I lasted longer this time, in terms of burnout. I was productive for a
lot longer. I liked the job a lot better. Even after I left, I think I
liked it better at its worst than I liked IA at its worst.
And at least you did rather like some of the coworkers.
But we can talk about that later. Distraction, remember?
Sure, sure.
But it's been seven years, and it appears that's all I'm good for. I was
good for music for seven years. It's been seven years, and I'm not sure
I'm good for programming. Will writing fade from me, too? Seven years
down the line?
When will you fade?
When will you fade?
At least I enjoyed it at first.
You did, yes. You worked ten, twelve hours a day.
I was doing something. I was actually producing something, and it was
being recognized by people. Music was fine, sure, but no one really paid
it much attention.
Is anybody paying attention to your writing?
You are.
If you say so.
A few others, maybe.
If you say so.
Don't be cruel.
If you say so.
