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\emph{Convergence T-plus 10 days, 2 hours, 3 minutes}\\
\emph{(Castor--Lagrange transmission delay: 30 days, 14 hours, 36 minutes)}
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\noindent Ioan knew that it would be quite a while yet before eir and May's forks merged back down. Time Is A Finger Pointing At Itself, the director of the play, was quite strict but she also drank like a fish and clung jealously to some remnant of productions she'd remembered from more than two centuries ago, so it had become a comfortable rhythm for Ioan, May, and any other actors who wished to join to follow her to a pub that served strong drinks and greasy food.

Ey had been planning on a simple dinner on eir own, perhaps catching up on some reading, but with this knowledge and the fact that May was now here with em, the plan evolved into something more involved. Staying inside didn't feel right. Something about the news had them in mind of stars, in mind of looking up to the sky, so they wound up grilling burgers out on the patio and talking as they watched the stars come out one by one, sitting there in the house's backyard.

The burgers had long since been finished and the grill long since put away when Ioan felt an automated sensorium ping of someone entering the house, followed shortly by a real-time message from who had just arrived.

She did not give em time to react, nor even to stand. Ey had only managed to turn to look to the bottom of the steps leading to the patio before the visitor stepped out onto the concrete, lit only by the string of lights tucked beneath the overhanging deck.

``I\ldots what? True Name?''

She bowed quickly before holding her paws up in a disarming gesture. ``Ioan, May Then My Name. I apologize for the brusque entry, but I believe we need to talk.''

May growled, pushing herself to her feet. ``I will leave you to it.''

Ey had only ever seen eir partner furious on a scant handful of occasions, but now ey could add one more to the list. Her teeth were bared, tail bristled out, and hiked up, paws bunched up into fists. In the two decades since the research and publication of \emph{On the Origin of Our World}, since the knowledge of True Name's supposed role in Michelle's death became known, May's view of her down-tree instances had dropped precipitously, and all but one of those moments of fury had been triggered by her own clade.

``May Then My Name, please,'' True Name said, clasping her paws before her and bowing once again, lower this time. She sounded contrite, small. ``I know that you do not hold me in high regard, but all the same, I would prefer if you stayed, as I am assuming that you have both received the same news.''

May hesitated, frowned, and crossed her arms, but did not move to leave.

``Thank you,'' the other skunk said, straightening up and brushing her paws down her blouse, a nervous gesture ey had never seen on one who always looked so in control. ``I will not take up too much of your time, as there is much to be done. Even though there are several of me already at work and this is my only task, my mind is still torn in many directions. May we please step inside where there is more light?''

Ioan looked up to May, who shrugged. She still looked as though she would like to either quit or bounce True Name from the sim entirely.

Once they were seated inside, True Name stared off into space for a moment, and Ioan imagined her rifling through several exocortices at once, digging out a collection of files and memories.

``Alright,'' she said, shaking her head to focus. ``First of all, may I see the message that you have received from Codrin\#Castor?''

``There was some content that was clade eyes only, but I'll share the first half with you.''

``And there is nothing in the second half that pertains to Artemis?''

Ey shook eir head, drawing the first half of the message out from the tabletop as a bit of foolscap which ey handed over. ``Codrin had questions on careers. Nothing pertinent.''

The skunk skimmed the message rapidly while Ioan and May looked on. Eir partner still held fury in her eyes. Ey only felt tired.

``Alright, this is much the same information that we received earlier today.'' True Name folded the slip of paper and slid it into a pocket in her slacks. ``I am sure that you can guess why I have arrived in such a rush, but to be clear, True Name\#Castor learned that Codrin had sent you this update. Ey was free to do so, but\ldots well, it is our job to consider information security and hygiene, so she sent us an additional message immediately upon learning of this.''

``And you are here to shut us up,'' May said.

True Name lowered her gaze. ``I am here only to provide suggestions as to that same security and hygiene.''

Ioan marveled at the sight of the skunk. She had always seemed so proud and in control, and now she looked to be on the verge of panic. She looked, of all things, frightened.

``Okay,'' ey said. ``But didn't you and Jonas plan for this? Run simulations?''

``We did, yes. We even ran the fact that it might be you who received the information through our models,'' she said, nodding to em.

``But you did not count on me,'' May said.

There was a tight silence that lingered a long few seconds before True Name nodded. ``We did not count on you. We did not count on \emph{both} of you. We did not count on\ldots{}'' She took a shaky breath, recomposed herself, and continued. ``We did not count on what changes the dynamic between you two would lead to.''

``Your models included a historian, you mean,'' Ioan said. ``And now you also have one of your own. You've got two actors, one of whom was purpose-built by you specifically to influence others.''

She looked stricken, gaze jumping between em and May. ``When one has lived so long with a certain set of expectations, having them subverted is a shock. May Then My Name, I do not begrudge you your feelings toward me. It is not my goal to win you back or anything like that; all I can do is admit my shortcomings and try to do better by you, even if that is, as you have requested, leaving you be. I truly am happy for you—for both of you—as you have accomplished something that I never could, that Michelle struggled with from the beginning. However, I have a job. I have goals to work towards. I have a vision that I would like above all things to uphold.''

``You have painted yourself into a corner,'' May said. Her voice had lost the edge of anger at her down-tree instance's admission and apology.

True Name giggled.

It was a startling sound coming from her. Ioan had seen her laugh, grin, and smile, but they were all tightly controlled. They were all laser-focused cues to guide her interlocutor. The giggle held amusement, yes, but also nervousness. It seemed to be covering a much larger, less grounded emotional outburst. Ey had been considering just how much of this interaction up until this point was a carefully constructed act, how much of her visit could be dismissed with a wink and a grin, but there was something far too real about that giggle.

Ioan and May looked to each other and frowned.

``I'm sorry, True Name,'' ey said. ``I mean this in all compassion, but you sound like you're about to lose it.''

The skunk giggled again, sounding even less grounded, then rested her elbows on the table and buried her face in her paws, grinding the heels of her palms against her eyes before straightening the longer fur atop her head. ``I am, yes. At least in a way. There are many threads happening at once and, as May Then My Name put it, I have painted myself into a corner with this one.''

``Make your pitch, then,'' May said, voice softer still.

``It is a small ask, I hope,'' the skunk said, folding her hands on the tabletop once more. ``Do not publish any of this information in the feeds or in some new book or play, and do not put it anywhere in the perisystem architecture. Not yet. I ask that you keep it between yourselves, Jonas, me, and other Odists. You may, of course, keep communicating with Castor, but I would ask that you not pass this on to Pollux yet. Codrin and True Name are working together, per the message I received, so I imagine our messages will contain similar content, but should anything interesting come up, I would be much obliged if you shared with me. Are you open to that?''

``Sure,'' Ioan said.

May shrugged. ``I may talk to A Finger Pointing and End Waking about it, but I think you will have the rest of the clade under control before I wind up speaking to any of them again. I will likely also share this with Douglas. He of all people deserves to know.''

The skunk stiffened in her seat and sat silent for a moment. ``May I be there when you do? I would like to impress upon him the gravity of the situation.''

``Absolutely not.''

True Name winced, wilted, nodded. ``I see. Well, if you would pass on my request for information security, I would be very grateful.''

``I will,'' May said. ``I will also be telling Debarre.''

There was a long silence. Ioan could not read either of the skunks' features, nor guess at the sudden tension in the room.

``We'll pass on your request,'' Ioan said at last, earning em a sharp glance from May.

True Name nodded slowly. Standing and once more brushing her blouse flat, she bowed. ``Thank you both and apologies for the intrusion.''

May stood as well and stepped around the table, taking the other skunk's paws in her own. It was strange to see the gesture of kindness after so tense a discussion, but the expression on May's face as she looked at her down-tree instance showed none of the friendship implied.

Ioan marveled. If the sight of two skunks that shared so much in common and yet differed in such fundamental ways was uncanny, seeing them touch in like this after so much acrimonious history bordered on distressing.

``You wrote to me back in 197,'' May said. ``You pointed me toward Ioan and you told me, `You are, in many ways, a better version of me, and the completeness that you bring to our stanza ensures that we add up to something that is greater than the sum of its parts.' You told me that you still love me in your own way. Do you remember that?''

The skunk canted her ears back and nodded.

May let go of her paws to hug her arms up around her cocladist's shoulders. ``I still believe that.''

True Name leaned into the hug. Ey couldn't see her face from where ey sat, but ey could still hear the sharp intake of breath and see the shaking of her shoulders.

After a moment, May leaned back, rested her paws on those shoulders, and said, ``But please leave and do not ever, \emph{ever} come to my house again.''
