rebase map, work on surgery

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@@ -41,5 +41,23 @@ There is change implied in the loss of virginity. Something elegant,
 something beyond just the physical. Maybe it's maturity,
 maybe it's a coming of age, or even some strange aspect of purity.
 It's a one-way change</blockquote>
-That no-going-back-ness
+That no-going-back-ness grew stronger and stronger,
+and the minutes just seemed to go longer and longer,
+as I got closer and closer to the fateful moment of change.
+I was laid on my back. I wwas wheeled to the OR. "How strange,"
+I thought. "That I'll never know where this room actually is.
+I'm wheeled here on my back, the surgeon does his biz,
+and I'll wake up in post-op." To this day, I have no idea.
+Did all of my friends go through this? Did Katt? Did Lutea?
+Were we all whisked away to some dreamside room
+where we would be changed? Some strange, perhaps-tomb?
+After all, this surgery, this procedue, none of this was riskless.
+Would this be where we died? Would we pass here, resistless,
+in the depths of anaesthesia?
+<blockquote>Was that really such a worry?
+&emsp;&emsp;&emsp;&emsp;&emsp;&emsp;&emsp;&emsp;&emsp;&emsp;&emsp;&emsp;&emsp;&emsp; I mean, I suppose it had to have been.
+You spent all that time polishing your will. How could you begin
+to deny the death-thoughts inherent in a nine-hour surgery?
+That you didn't still leaves you feeling like you're living a forgery
+of a life.</blockquote>
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