Mystical draft

content/aside/3.html

@@ -18,13 +18,13 @@ audio {
 </style>
 
 <div class="vis"></div>
-<!--<audio autoplay loop controls src="/confusion.mp3"></audio>-->
+<audio autoplay loop controls src="/confusion.mp3"></audio>
 
 <script type="text/javascript">
 document.body.style.transition = '0.5s all linear';
 const induction = [
     {
-        speed: 100,
+        speed: 80,
         bg: '#fff',
         color: '#222',
         text: "Let's think about a meditation session with you lying down and me sitting next to you and just how it feels to hear your feelings and how it works to let go of what you know as we think about a meditation session with you lying down and me sitting next to you. "
@@ -36,19 +36,19 @@ const induction = [
         text: "Let's dream about the words we use for the numbers we count to relax the mind which focuses so readily on those numbers, counting slowly down from ten, your mind immediately reaching for "
     },
     {
-        speed: 110,
+        speed: 70,
         bg: '#aaa',
         color: '#000',
         text: "nine, which is a fine number but always looked hungry to me and so follows eight which knows just what it ate to feel full, and down onto seven lucky seven which is what you need to get what you need but take away one and you get three plus three or three times two which is six and after that five, five fingers on each hand and toes on each foot, five the sum of the Trinity and the duality, "
     },
     {
-        speed: 100,
+        speed: 60,
         bg: '#fff',
         color: '#222',
         text: "and lets take a look at a meditation session as seen from above with you laying down and me sitting next to you ",
     },
     {
-        speed: 110,
+        speed: 80,
         bg: '#666',
         color: '#fff',
         text: "speaking in words like tangled coils of repetition hidden beneath sibilant esses and susurrating syllables that tug at you this way and that with tangled coils of repetition beneath murmured words and suggestions and half sentences that double back on each other in tangled coils of repetition reinforcing small hints that have you letting go and then we can move on "

content/core/046.md

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 > You're not very focused.
 
-How does one approach what one can't describe?
+I know.
 
-> Swing the flashlight rapidly across the room. Piece together what you can from the sweep of the beam across the walls, the furniture.
-
-How does one hunt down what leaves no tracks?
-
-> Unwind the maze by keeping your right hand on the wall. Pray that the walls do not move.
-
-How does one call down the gods to commune?
-
-> Speak thrice, and enter.
-
-I'm tired. I'm so tired. I'm tired and I'm upset and I'm lost.
-
-> I know.
-
-I want to shout and to whisper. I want to talk about how I feel when I read Stevens or Esch or Rilke. I want to put words to the feeling of falling to the ground and taking root.
-
-I want to tell how it feels when I step outside myself.
-
-> You tried.
-
-I guess that's all I can do.
-
-> It's not, but it's important that you have tried.
+> Ask.

content/core/047.md

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+---
+date: 2019-08-25
+weight: 46
+---
+
+How does one approach what one can't describe?
+
+> Swing the flashlight rapidly across the room. Piece together what you can from the sweep of the beam across the walls, the furniture.
+
+How does one hunt down what leaves no tracks?
+
+> Unwind the maze by keeping your right hand on the wall. Pray that the walls do not move.
+
+How does one call down the gods to commune?
+
+> Speak thrice, and enter.
+
+I'm tired. I'm so tired. I'm tired and I'm upset and I'm lost.
+
+> I know.
+
+I want to shout and to whisper. I want to talk about how I feel when I read Stevens or Esch or Rilke. I want to put words to the feeling of falling to the ground and taking root.
+
+I want to say how it feels when I step outside myself.
+
+> You tried.
+
+I guess that's all I can do.
+
+> It's not, but it's important that you have tried.