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@@ -11,7 +11,7 @@ Yes, even with self-appointed tasks, even with tasks at a non job-shop. It happe
 
 If you hit a deadline and succeed, or if you have some work travel, or if you get home from a vacation, suddenly there's this empty bit of your future where there used to be this thing. There's just a void there. A sudden lack of weight.
 
-> And so you finished the release at work and also finished the office move in one fell swoop, and went home.
+> And so, back then, you finished the release at work and also finished the office move in one fell swoop, and went home.
 
 I went home and took my meds like a good girl, and then proceeded to dissociate right through the evening.
 
@@ -21,6 +21,6 @@ Dissociation is a hell of a drug.
 
 I watched myself sit down in my chair. I watched myself turn on *Babylon 5*. I watched myself mow through two glasses of gin.
 
-> You watched yourself with a metaphysical quirk of the eyebrow as you reached forward, grabbed the box of X-acto wood-carving tools, and flipped it open. You watched numbly as you slashed open the inside of your arm. There was a moment where you marveled at how long it took for the blood to well up, where you could see the white of subcutaneous fat.
+> You watched yourself with a metaphysical quirk of the eyebrow as you reached forward, grabbed the box of X-acto wood-carving tools --- purchased, doubtless, for some long forgotten project --- and flipped it open. You watched numbly as you slashed open the inside of your arm. There was a moment where you marveled at how long it took for the blood to well up, where you could see the white of subcutaneous fat.
 
 And then the pain snapped me to.