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categories:
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- Non-fiction
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ratings: G
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date: 2016-12-04
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type: post
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pdf: gender-furry.pdf
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tags:
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- Furry
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- About furry
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- Gender
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title: 'Gender: Furry - An investigation into the interplay of gender and fandom'
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_**Gender: Furry** was originally commissioned for and published in **Furries Among Us II**, released by Thurston Howl Publications_
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Many people, I suspect, use the idiom, "hindsight is twenty-twenty," in
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a way that is better served by other, more appropriate words or phrases.
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The sense in which I hear it most commonly used is perhaps more
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adequately covered by the beautiful portmanteau, "regretrospect". That
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is, now that things are said and done, I regret a lot of what happened
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during this adventure.
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Also, it's my second favorite portmanteau after "congratudolences" and
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really ought to see wider use.
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No, I think "hindsight is twenty-twenty" is better reserved for cases
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when seemingly unrelated occurrences come together to form an outcome
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that seems to be greater than the sum of the parts. It fits best when
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you look back at your life and see disparate, unconnected events come
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together to make the situation you find yourself in now.
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I came out to myself and my (at the time) fiancé as transgender over a
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process of several months. It began sometime in 2010 or so, when I
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started to feel like I was able to put words to the things that were
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making me feel bad. I began by identifying as genderqueer, and although
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that label still fits very well, I adopted 'transgender' in 2015 as the
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one that I use in day-to-day life to describe myself, as it leaves the
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fewest questions as to why I'm a six-foot-two rectangular man-shape in
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feminine clothing and makeup.
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But we're talking about hindsight, so it's worth bringing up that one of
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the only things I ever stole was the book "The Boy Who Thought He Was A
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Girl", back in second grade. I'm guessing at the title here, as I can
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find no record of it through casual Googling, however, I remember that
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it was a trashy, essentialist book about a boy who wanted to learn how
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to kiss, which somehow made him girly and, thus, confused about whether
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he should actually be a girl. Of course, in the end, his understanding
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of his gender role as a boy were firmly straightened out by
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strict-yet-loving family.
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Or perhaps another step in this path of hindsight was sneaking into my
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step-mom's spare room when I was about twelve and trying on one of her
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old dresses. At that point, I had yet to become the lummox that would be
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my post-pubertal destiny, and so the dress fit, albeit poorly.
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Or, hey, skip ahead to 2006, when I had just turned twenty and realized
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that it felt just as good to role-play online as a vixen as it did as a
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tod, though I told myself at the time that it was because I wanted to
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experience more relationship configurations than the male homosexual
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relationships I'd had to that point.
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Each of these things, and so many more, felt like an independent,
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unconnected occurrence to me. It's only in hindsight that I can see that
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there were aspects of me straining towards some way to feel happy and
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comfortable. When I was growing up, they were simple oddities, but now
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just another way to see the present more clearly.
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I think that it's fairly common that one comes to terms with a portion
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of one's identity in this fashion. Before I came out as trans and made
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the question of sexual orientation at least twice as complicated, I went
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through the process of figuring out that, despite being born male, I was
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also attracted to other boys as well as girls. Those 'crushes' in
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elementary school make more sense, and so on.
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There had to be some lever that pushed each of those instances from a
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collection of loosely related occurrences into the formation of a strong
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facet of my own identity. With orientation, it was obviously the rush of
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hormones that came with puberty: all of the sudden, 'liking boys' took
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on a new tenor.
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With gender, it was almost entirely the furry subculture's fault.
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I found furry at the age of fourteen or so through the website Yerf!,
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and later through a FurCode generator. At the time, though gender was
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quite confusing for me when viewed in hindsight, I identified as a cis
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gay male. Furry, then, was a welcome haven from home life, where it was
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cool to be a teenage fox boy thinking about dating other teenage fox
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boys.
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As I grew up and continued in my development as a person, filling in
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bits of my concept of self as one fills in gaps in a puzzle when the
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pieces are found, furry helped yet again in providing a framework in
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exploration and comfort.
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</svg>
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*Gender expression of the author's character as portrayed in visual
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commissions over the
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years.*
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The figure above shows the ways in which the sex of my
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characters in art that I commissioned changed over time. On the Y axis,
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you can see the genders expressed in the commissions, and on the x, the
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date of the commission. There's a very clear trend from male to
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genderless, then from genderless to female over time, then from female
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(as an idealized form of myself) to a specifically trans fox (as I
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started to get comfortable with my identity as a transgender person).
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I'm not alone in this progression, either, as many have found the
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utility in having a mostly safe space in which role-play is common and
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accepted behavior in which to explore various aspects of their identity.
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There's a very good reason for this, too, but first, lets hear from
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other critters using furry as a lens to help in the explorations of
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their gender.
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When I think of Indi, I think of the colorful coyote/otter (read
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'coyotter', or simply 'yotter') that I've gotten to know fairly well
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over the past few years. When I met ver for the first real time, it was
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at a room party at a convention, where we were tasting various types of
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mead. I can't remember if ve had made vis way to the room party from my
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invitation or at the behest of our mutual friend, Tealfox. Either way, I
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was glad to have the chance to meet up.
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Over the years, I would find myself catching up with ver again and
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again. At cons, sure, but also at vis house with vis owner Elanna, where
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I stayed for a few days in order to experience the delight that is
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Bandaza, a yearly celebration occurring near the end of November, which
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involves what must been the greatest concentration of postfurries I've
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ever seen.
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As is perhaps evident from vis pronouns, Indi's identity falls somewhere
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outside the realm of 'male' or 'female'. Ve describes verself as
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neutrois transgender, as having a sense of gender that's neither
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masculine nor feminine nor a combination of the two. This carries over
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into vis online representation; ve isn't simply a coyotter, but a
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synthetic one, often plush. After all, while plush toys and other
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synthetic beings may have a semblance of sexual characteristics, it's
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easy to imagine them not having an internal sense of identity along
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binary gender lines.
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Ve describes verself as having medically transitioned in order to deal
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with the body dysphoria (unhappiness with one's form or self) that is
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part and parcel of being transgender. This helps ver, along with finding
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modes of presentation to avoid social dysphoria, to exist in a
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concordant way with the world around ver.
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In Indi's words, "Furry helped a lot by being a place where the answers
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to basic questions of identity (species, gender) are almost always
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fill-in-the-blank." Some of the best things that furry has to offer is
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that these things which mean the most to someone working on their own
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identity are taken at their word. For example, from the point of view of
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an FtM person --- someone transitioning from female to male --- to say,
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"This is what I am, and that's all that you need to know," is huge. The
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validation that one gains for being taken as and interacted with as what
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they say they are is no small thing.
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Indi writes, "At its best, furry treats identity as consensual and
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fluid; you are what you say you are, and what you say you are may change
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and evolve in the future, temporarily or permanently."
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Although there are many ways in which this can take place, the act of
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creating one's own character, the means by which they interact with the
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rest of the subculture, is something that furry excels at.
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"Anthropomorphic forms also provide a rich toolkit of options for bodily
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self-expression," writes Indi, "With countless species, real and
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imaginary, and a mix-and-match approach to species signifiers and
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primary/secondary sexual characteristics. All this allowed me to keep
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tweaking, trying different ways of being me until I found the one that
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felt the most comfortable and accurate."
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That said, furry isn't the haven it might seem to be for someone
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exploring something as complex as gender.
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Indi explains: "In furry chat venues, a common expectation is that sex
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will happen or at least be discussed, which means many choices about
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presentation and identity are interpreted in sexual terms." It's easy to
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see the ways in which this could interact with gender, given the complex
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interactions between sexuality and gender. "The "what do you have in
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your pants" question, the archetypal inappropriate question for trans
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folks, is almost always on the table."
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This goes doubly so for non-binary genders. For those who present in a
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way way that lands somewhere between male and female, or outside that
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spectrum entirely, the issue of attraction and sex can become troubled,
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as Indi notes, "Further, presentations that seem difficult to interact
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with sexually, like those that de-emphasize both masculinity and
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femininity, will generally be given the side-eye or pointedly ignored."
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I met Lumi, on the other hand, shortly before writing this piece when
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someone retweeted one of her posts. She had lined up drawings of her
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character over the years, with short explanations, and it was easy to
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see a similar trend as outlined in my own graph above: her character
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started male, then began to shift more feminine through a process of
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experimentation towards the female character she is drawn as to this
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day, in alignment with her female identity.
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"Prior to coming out as female, I talked to some friends about it," she
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says. "I struggled a lot with the identity, even after coming out to
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friends, and then to everyone online. I considered myself non-binary for
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a while and went by they/them pronouns. This is because I don't
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experience much gender dysphoria so I didn't feel "Trans Enough" to
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consider myself female."
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This is a sentiment echoed by many as they work their way through
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figuring out their identity. Non-binary identities are, of course, just
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as valid as binary identities, and for many, the 'end goal' is neither
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masculine nor feminine, as evidenced by Indi's journey, while for
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others, they're a step on the path. No states of identity can be said to
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be purely transitional, and none can be said to be purely final.
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For Lumi, the non-binary portion of her journey happened to be
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transitional. "Finally, I settled on female but it still took me a while
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to "settle in" to being this gender. Since I can remember, people online
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have always assumed I was a girl anyways. Most people don't even know
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I'm trans, since I hardly ever mention it. They just assume I'm a rad
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cis girl."
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"I feel like a fursona is a reflection of yourself. I don't believe that
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my fursona is me, but rather she is like someone I aspire to be," Lumi
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writes, referring to the ways in which furry helped in solidifying
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identity. "Since she's a fictional character, it's always been easy to
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experiment with her and my gender identity was part of that
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experimentation. She has always had the ability to shape-shift and I
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always found myself drawing her as a girl even when she wasn't."
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On a hunch that these sentiments go far beyond just that small sector of
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furry, I started a small, informal poll on twitter, and got inundated
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with responses. The poll itself was simple:
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> Hi.
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> Tell me about how furry helped you with figuring out your gender
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> identity!
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> Thanks.
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>
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> *--- Tweet from @drab\_makyo on July 6, 2016*
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The responses were overwhelmingly positive, though some had a few
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caveats. Many said that the opportunity to create a character as an
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ideal form of themself offered them the possibility to find a way to be
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more true to more aspects of their identity than they might have had in
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the first place. Furry, it seems, provides a constructive and creative
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place in order to explore.
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You'll note, however, that I didn't say 'safe place' above. Many of the
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caveats to furry being a good place to explore gender surround the fact
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that, in a lot of ways, many furries who identify as trans or non-binary
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(as well as intersex folks) feel fetishized more often than not. Gender,
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as we well know, goes far beyond just the interactions of genitalia.
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Another caveat that I heard was that, although the subculture provided a
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healthy means to *begin* exploring gender, many felt that the thing that
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helped them mature in their identity was seeing representation *outside*
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of the fandom, as well. This was especially true for some of the
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non-binary folks that I got the chance to talk with. Some mentioned that
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their exploration ceased at the point where they created a character for
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themselves to match their perceived identity and went no further without
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some external representation.
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There's much more that I can say on the matter of why furry might be
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good for exploration, and I will shortly, but first, there is far more
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data available than just a single twitter poll! After all, as Executive
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Data Vix for \[adjective\]\[species\], it's my job to administer the
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Furry Poll, the fandom's largest market survey, and then to go for deep
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dives into that giant pool of data.
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To that end, I started pulling some numbers from the 2016 Furry Poll.
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There were 3194 total responses to look at which were relevant to our
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topic at hand. Here are the questions that we asked:
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1. What is your age in years?
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2. What best describes your gender identity?
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- Masculine or mostly masculine
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- Feminine or mostly feminine
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- Other *(NB: there were a series of options, including a write-in
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option, which, for our purposes, have been boiled down to an
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'other' category.)*
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3. Does your gender identity now align with your sex as assigned at
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birth?
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- Yes (I am cisgender)
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- No (I am not cisgender)
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- It's complicated (exactly what it says on the tin)
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What all did we get? Well, nothing too surprising, and let me explain
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why.
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The ideas that we hold to be true without proof comprise our *doxa*.
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That is, the things we assume to be true, or to be the case without
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needing to have anything backing those assumptions up. When one looks
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around the furry fandom at time of writing, one is likely to find a
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subculture made up mostly of those presenting masculine.
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*Gender identity of respondents in the 2016 Furry
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Poll.*
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To that, the survey offers only confirmation. A
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bit more than 75% of the respondents --- certainly a supermajority ---
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responded that their gender identity was masculine or mostly masculine.
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Although one's expression or presentation used as a predictor has its
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flaws, a glance around the average convention space bears truth to this
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claim: we can mark that down as one point for our doxa reading things
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correctly.
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*Gender alignment of respondents in the 2016 Furry*
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Now, how about we look at gender alignment;
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that is, let's take a look at the breakdown of how folks' gender
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identity aligns with their sex as assigned at birth. For example, a
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trans man who was assigned female at birth but identifies as a man now,
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would be someone who would fall under the umbrella term of
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'transgender', while a man who was assigned male at birth would fall
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under the term 'cisgender'. Additionally, for the sake of completeness,
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the survey also offered the choice for the respondent to answer that the
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answer was more complicated than these two choices would allow (we did
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not ask for further details, and had we, we would not, of course, be
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able to share them while preserving anonymity).
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The most noticeable part of this, on the surface, is that one sees a
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great deal more trans-feminine (those who identify as feminine and yet
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whose sex as assigned at birth does not match with their identity, in
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this instance) than trans-masculine folks. It's understandable that the
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"other" category, small as it is, contain a more even distribution, but
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given the uneven distribution in reported gender identities, it makes it
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all the more striking that there are so many trans-feminine respondents.
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This is, perhaps, a shadow cast by society at large, making it more
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enticing for a trans-feminine person to seek refuge in a welcome
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subculture. For someone assigned feminine at birth to be into
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stereotypical masculine behavior is not a big deal. We even have a word
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for that: tomboy. It's value-neutral in many circles, and downright
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positive in some. But for someone assigned masculine at birth to behave
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feminine, well, there's a word for that, too: sissy. A welcoming
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environment for someone to explore along those lines --- from masculine to
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feminine --- is, therefore, not so difficult to foresee. It's also why the
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demographics of those interviewed for this piece fall more along these
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lines. It has little to do with minimizing the transmasculine
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experience, and quite a bit to do with the demographics involved.
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There is a certain peril to dating not one, but two wordy, genderful
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critters, and being married to a cisgender gay man who has stayed with
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me through my own transition (who, for his part, mentioned that the
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benefit of furry was that it exposed transgender identities to him as
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something more than what you'd hear from the news, adding to the
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personhood involved). When I began this project, not only did I have
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plenty of story to tell, for myself, but both partners leapt at the
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chance to help, whether it be through interviewing or through beta
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reading the final piece.
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Forneus and I met over Twitter back in 2011 through a mutual
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acquaintance, and bonded during an impromptu metal concert in one of the
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elevators at Further Confusion in 2012. It was loud, there were cats, I
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stuffed my fursuit paw in someone's mouth by accident. Good times.
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Forneus has been with me through most of the time I've been consciously
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exploring gender. They sat and listened to me complain about the lack of
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non-binary representation, the problems inherent in getting the
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requisites met for starting hormone replacement therapy, and the whole
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process of coming out at work.
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At the same time, I was there much of their own journey. While I've
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landed somewhere on the feminine side of neutral, they have been
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experiencing things differently: "I'd say I'm somewhere in genderqueer
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land, leaning feminine. What that means for me: I'm mostly fine with the
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body I was born with, but my presentation is a lot more
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"stereotypically" feminine based on modern American stereotypes."
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I had the chance to ask them if they felt comfortable expressing their
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identity both within and outside of furry. "Yeah, for a few reasons,"
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they said. "The consequences that directly impact me are a lot less
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likely to be problems. I'm not going to lose my job or an opportunity at
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a job, I'm not going to have to work with the random troll every day, et
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cetera. It's a lot easier to disengage, I guess, as long as I keep
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myself honest on it."
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"Everyone's already primed to the concept of an ideal self," they
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continued. "Even straight cis\[gender\] furries, so "my ideal self is
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me, but with different bits" feels really easy to explain most of the
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time. \[Even\] from within the broader trans community, there's
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definitely a tendency to feel like I'm not "trans enough""
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Outside of furry, though, things were less comfortable. ""If I show up
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to this interview in a dress, it'll raise questions" is something I had
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to deal with a lot during my last job search, for example." The world at
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large rarely cares about our ideal selves, and often makes sweeping
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judgements based on presentation. "I'm not convinced that HRT would be
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right, so I'm not doing it," they mention. "The "next step" is coming
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out at work. I don't currently feel capable of doing that."
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Lexy, my other partner, expressed similar thoughts. While furry, "helped
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by having open and kind people to talk with, and to explore gender
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identity with," life outside of furry offered much more in the way of
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obstacles. She hasn't been able to take many steps yet largely due to
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family issues, and has described her path as, "Working towards finding a
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safe environment to transition. I currently feel fairly uncomfortable
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due to not being able to transition, but overall I feel like furry has
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helped a lot in feeling more comfortable with myself."
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So is furry a net win, over all, for furries? "Yeah, for sure," says
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Forneus. "It's definitely helped me figure out my own sexuality, if
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nothing else, and I know a lot of cool trans furries. So that's pretty
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helpful too, having good friends with both a shared interest and a
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nominally-similar life history."
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Lumi agrees: "I'm very comfortable with my identity, and I feel it fits
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me very well. I almost fell game to the idea of "Well you have to be
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really girly to be a girl," but now I'm more like a tomboy girl. Yeah,
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sometimes I might be rude and I'm not into dresses and makeup, but at
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the end of the day, I am one cool chick."
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Indi sums things up nicely, saying, "Even three years ago I never would
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have believed I would be able to go this far, to feel like I've almost
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entirely managed to express myself as the human-AU version of a glowy
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swishy neutral-gendered rave critter. It hasn't always been easy, and
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there's still a lot that could be done to make it smoother, but I think
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I'm in a good place. There's always ways to improve, always new things I
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think I can try, but each move seems to be smaller than the last, and
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I'm far more comfortable with myself than I ever could have imagined I'd
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be when I started trying."
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-----
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Given the stories of those exploring and expressing gender and identity
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through the framework of furry, the obvious next question that needs to
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be asked is "why?"
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Naturally, these sorts of things are not answered by any simple quip,
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nor even a single article like this. That said, there are some things
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that we can point to that might help explain just why the furry
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subculture plays as big a role as it does in the formation of its
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members' identities, gender and otherwise.
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There are a pair of twinned concepts within the realm of psychology that
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have been applied to this topic in particular. Aaron Devor, a
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sociologist and dean of graduate studies at the University of Victoria
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in Canada, described them most succinctly in their paper, "Witnessing
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and Mirroring: A Fourteen Stage Model of Transsexual Identity
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Formation."
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The stages themselves are interesting, of course. They describe the path
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that a trans person might take as they work through the process of
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coming out, transitioning, and so on. I'm not going to list them here,
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to save on ink --- the paper is free, easy to find legally online, and
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worth a read on its own. However, I'd like to talk about the twinned
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concepts mentioned in the title, as they play a much more integral role
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when it comes to figuring out why furry might be a good place for so
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many to explore identity.
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Witnessing is the idea that we gain something in the way of validation
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by having others see us as we see ourselves. For someone who is
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solidifying the image of themselves as they feel others ought to see it,
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to have someone outside themselves perceive them along those lines is
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incredibly validating. For trans women to called ma'am, or trans men to
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be able to use the men's room, or for non-binary folks to be referred to
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by their proper pronouns…all of these things are a form of witnessing,
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and help to reinforce the individual's sense that they are doing what is
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best for their life.
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To go along with that, mirroring is the idea that we gain validation by
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way of seeing others who are like us. For folks in the early stages of
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transitioning, this comes both in the form of seeing other folks in the
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early stages --- the "I can do it too" effect --- as well as folks later on
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in the process --- the "See, it can be done" effect. When we see something
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of ourselves reflected in others, it adds a bit of realism to something
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that might have once only been a fantasy.
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Within my circle of friends, we talk of the 'gender cascade'. Someone in
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our lives will come out and start exploring their own gender more
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openly, and we'll think to ourselves, "Oh, hm. If they can do it, so can
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I!" or perhaps, "Goodness, now that I'm confronted with this, I'm
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starting to question my own identity". For me, although there were
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several such people, the one I think of most immediately is Indi;
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watching vis explorations within the realm of gender is what got me to
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think seriously about all of my own internal struggle about gender
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identity. Ve, in turn, had vis own influences, stretching all the way
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back into the distant past, each of whom influenced others, creating a
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cascading flowchart of gender.
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This goes far beyond just our little in-group. Folks have often talked about the cascade, perhaps using terms such as
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'transplosion', or one news source's amusing choice of 'transgender
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mania'. In both cases --- either constrained by the constituents of a
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subculture or relatively unrestricted and part of society at large ---
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those who are questioning their gender, or even those who are certain
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but unsure of beginning transition, can gain validation through
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witnessing and mirroring. That is, they can allow themselves to be seen
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as they are in safe contexts and see others who are like themselves in
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order to gain the confidence to move forward.
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Furry provides fertile soil for this sort of thing due in large part to
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the fact that we explicitly design the image that others think of when
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they think of us, through the formation of our personal characters,
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avatars, or fursonas, however you want to think of it.
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If you flip back to the graph of the sex of my characters that were
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represented in commissioned furry art, you can see a very definite shift
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away from male. At first, I shifted from masculine to explicitly
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genderless, because my assigned identity had become so painful to me
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that my instinct was to escape. From there, as I gained confidence and
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with validation from others, I started to incorporate more and more
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feminine aspects into my characters.
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Your character is an unspoken-yet-explicit way for a fur to say, "This
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is how I ought to be seen." For trans folk, it provides a useful tool in
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terms of exploring gender identity: although mirroring becomes mudding
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in many circumstances (for those role-playing as a different gender,
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being outed as such isn't exactly desirable), it sure as hell makes
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witnessing easier. I became a fox girl on the internet long before I got
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the letter that allowed me to start hormone replacement therapy.
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There's a conclusion that I draw from all of this, though it took me
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some time to connect the dots, pull it up, draw it all together, and
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many other metaphors.
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When I started associating with animal people on the internet, I did so
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as a fragile teen who could barely admit that sex was a thing that
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existed, much less as a being with a sexual orientation, never mind one
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that might not be straight, or even sexually active. Meeting and
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interacting with sexual, non-straight, and happy folk helped change that
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over the process of a few years, and a few halting relationships.
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Fast-forward a few years, and there I was: a mid-twenties person in the
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middle of an identity crisis. What was I? Was I nothing? Sex was a
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panic-riddled minefield of unmet expectations and awkward feelings of
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being built wrong. Was a I woman, with my my dreams of
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motherhood-but-not-fatherhood? Was I something in between, with the fact
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that womanhood discomfited me in a different way than manhood?
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Here, unlike with my orientation, I had enough experience to both look
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around me and see those going through something similar, as well as to
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take a step to be seen as who I felt that I might be. I started out
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haltingly, and went down a few wrong paths (looking at you, plush phase;
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love me some plushies, but it's not *me*), but I found myself a niche.
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It came in the form of a description and a few megabytes of graphical
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data culled from the minds and tablets of some artistically minded and
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decidedly amazing friends. It led to me confronting my therapist one day
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and saying, "Hey, can you write me a hormone letter?"
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Fast forward another year or two, and where am I?
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I'm putting together the pieces of the fact that this isn't a uniquely
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trans thing, though this is an article on the intersection between
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gender and furry. Neither is it a uniquely sexual thing, though the
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intersection between sex and furry is worth an article of its own. It's
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something one layer up. It's membership in a community that provides a
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mechanism and a place for these discoveries to take place.
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Is it a uniquely furry thing? Almost certainly not. There are many
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different subcultures out there that follow the same pattern. The My
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Little Pony fandom is a wonderful example, providing a similar outlet to
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those who claim membership. However, there's no doubt that furry played
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a rather large role in identity for me, just as it did for so many other
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folks. There's just so much to be said for the fact that we build the
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avatars that we use to interact with others here, beyond even what many
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other subcultures do.
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Without furry, I might just as well have come out as gay, then neutrois,
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then genderqueer, then trans, then all of those other wonderful labels.
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But would I have felt safe doing so? Would I have gotten all of the
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validation that I needed to feel healthy doing so? Would I have come
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away with countless other brothers, sisters, and non-binary siblings in
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whom I could confide, admire, and rejoice?
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I don't know. There's a lot to account for. My life has treated me well,
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in all, and I feel privileged to have lived it. That said, I'm not
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convinced that there would be an outlet that would have provided such
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for me.
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Would there be one, outside of furry? I rather think not.
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