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 # Ioan Bălan --- 2325
 
-> **Ioan Bălan:** What excited you about the prospect of uploading?
+> Ioan Bălan
+> :   What excited you about the prospect of uploading?
 > 
-> **Fu Jinzai:** I actually wasn't that excited about the prospect. It was something that I just kind of did because it felt like it'd be easier than sticking around. The kids weren't seeing me anyway, and I could at least get them some cash for when they were older. It sounded nice enough up here, but there were still nice things back there, you know? I didn't think about it too much.
+> Fu Jinzai
+> :   I actually wasn't that excited about the prospect. It was something that I just kind of did because it felt like it'd be easier than sticking around. The kids weren't seeing me anyway, and I could at least get them some cash for when they were older. It sounded nice enough up here, but there were still nice things back there, you know? I didn't think about it too much.
 > 
-> **Ioan:** What do you miss most about phys-side?
+> Ioan
+> :   What do you miss most about phys-side?
 > 
-> **Jinzai:** The mountains.
+> Jinzai
+> :   The mountains.
 > 
-> **Ioan:** Have you done much exploring in the mountains around here?
+> Ioan
+> :   Have you done much exploring in the mountains around here?
 > 
-> **Jinzai:** Oh, sure. They're fine. Some of the ones that I've gotten around to visiting are really nice. They've got a lot of variety and all. There are some that are more like the Alps and some that are more like the Himalayas and some that are kind of like the ones back home, but it's not that I miss, like, the idea of mountains. I miss the little bits of the mountains that made them mine. I miss all the little caves that you could find, or when trees that had fallen over and their root-balls had been pulled up and you could sit under them if you weren't afraid of bugs or anything [laughter]. I miss the little shacks that people had built years and years and years ago, and, like, you have no idea what they were there for, right? Maybe this one is next to a pond, so it's for fishing, but then that one is just kind of in the middle of a forest, and it's too big to be an outhouse and too small to be a cabin, so maybe its a, a [snapping fingers] hunting blind? Is that the word?
+> Jinzai
+> :   Oh, sure. They're fine. Some of the ones that I've gotten around to visiting are really nice. They've got a lot of variety and all. There are some that are more like the Alps and some that are more like the Himalayas and some that are kind of like the ones back home, but it's not that I miss, like, the idea of mountains. I miss the little bits of the mountains that made them mine. I miss all the little caves that you could find, or when trees that had fallen over and their root-balls had been pulled up and you could sit under them if you weren't afraid of bugs or anything [laughter]. I miss the little shacks that people had built years and years and years ago, and, like, you have no idea what they were there for, right? Maybe this one is next to a pond, so it's for fishing, but then that one is just kind of in the middle of a forest, and it's too big to be an outhouse and too small to be a cabin, so maybe its a, a [snapping fingers] hunting blind? Is that the word?
 > 
-> **Ioan:** Where you sit and wait for animals to go by while hunting?
+> Ioan
+> :   Where you sit and wait for animals to go by while hunting?
 > 
-> **Jinzai:** Yes! A hunting blind. And then I miss --- and this is really silly --- I miss logging. It's horrible, right? [laughter] I know that it's horrible. Some people put in logging trails on their mountains, but they don't put those big swaths of woody trash that the loggers leave behind. I kind of miss that, you know? I miss looking out to the next mountain over and seeing this big rectangular patch of brown. I miss hearing chainsaws running miles away across the valley, but it sounds like, I don't know, like a dream, because it's echoing around the hills. 
+> Jinzai
+> :   Yes! A hunting blind. And then I miss --- and this is really silly --- I miss logging. It's horrible, right? [laughter] I know that it's horrible. Some people put in logging trails on their mountains, but they don't put those big swaths of woody trash that the loggers leave behind. I kind of miss that, you know? I miss looking out to the next mountain over and seeing this big rectangular patch of brown. I miss hearing chainsaws running miles away across the valley, but it sounds like, I don't know, like a dream, because it's echoing around the hills. 
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-> **Ioan:** It sounds a little like the mountains you've found here are too perfect, perhaps. Is that sort of what you're saying?
+> Ioan
+> :   It sounds a little like the mountains you've found here are too perfect, perhaps. Is that sort of what you're saying?
 > 
-> **Jinzai:** Yeah, I think so. It's too perfect. I don't mind perfection, of course, it's a damn sight better than living a terrible life, but --- oh man, I'm gonna sound like my grandpa when I say this --- it lacks that kind of toughness that makes you build character. Not, like, the character that he meant, in the trash sense of, like, being a big tough guy, but like, I think if you could grow up here around all this perfection, you wouldn't have much character. You'd be pretty boring. [laughter] I guess I'm glad that you can't upload until you're 18, so you at least have a chance to have some comparison to perfect mountains with the shitty ones phys-side.
+> Jinzai
+> :   Yeah, I think so. It's too perfect. I don't mind perfection, of course, it's a damn sight better than living a terrible life, but --- oh man, I'm gonna sound like my grandpa when I say this --- it lacks that kind of toughness that makes you build character. Not, like, the character that he meant, in the trash sense of, like, being a big tough guy, but like, I think if you could grow up here around all this perfection, you wouldn't have much character. You'd be pretty boring. [laughter] I guess I'm glad that you can't upload until you're 18, so you at least have a chance to have some comparison to perfect mountains with the shitty ones phys-side.
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-> **Ioan:** What's the first thing that you did after uploading?
+> Ioan
+> :   What's the first thing that you did after uploading?
 > 
-> **Jinzai:** Oh man, this is gross, so I'm sorry ahead of time. I ate myself sick. [laughter] I found some of those big sims that are all food and whatever, and I figured, "Hey, I don't have a body, right? I can do whatever!" So I started hopping from sim to sim just absolutely stuffing myself until I felt like I was going to pop, but I started getting super uncomfortable, so I came home and got super sick. [laughter] Sorry, yeah, that's pretty gross. I didn't realize that you could fiddle with your sensa...sensi...
+> Jinzai
+> :   Oh man, this is gross, so I'm sorry ahead of time. I ate myself sick. [laughter] I found some of those big sims that are all food and whatever, and I figured, "Hey, I don't have a body, right? I can do whatever!" So I started hopping from sim to sim just absolutely stuffing myself until I felt like I was going to pop, but I started getting super uncomfortable, so I came home and got super sick. [laughter] Sorry, yeah, that's pretty gross. I didn't realize that you could fiddle with your sensa...sensi...
 > 
-> **Ioan:** Sensorium?
+> Ioan
+> :   Sensorium?
 > 
-> **Jinzai:** Yeah, sensorium. I didn't know that you could fiddle with it so that you could just keep eating or whatever, but unless you're conscious of it, your mind makes it so that you just kind of work like you do back home. Didn't know that, so I ate until I just about burst. [laughter]
+> Jinzai
+> :   Yeah, sensorium. I didn't know that you could fiddle with it so that you could just keep eating or whatever, but unless you're conscious of it, your mind makes it so that you just kind of work like you do back home. Didn't know that, so I ate until I just about burst. [laughter]
 > 
-> **Ioan:** What's your biggest regret about uploading.
+> Ioan
+> :   What's your biggest regret about uploading.
 > 
-> **Jinzai:** [long pause] I mean, I said that I wasn't really seeing my kids much back then, and I guess that was true enough. I got to see them two or three times a year when I got rotated between crops and had a few weeks of leave. But like...man. I love them. I love them so much. I love them and I miss them every day, just like I loved them and missed them every day back phys-side. I regret...ah, hell. [long pause] I regret that even though they didn't really know me all that well, that they'll never get to know me at all, now, and all I'll have are these memories and-- [long pause] and the only way I'll ever get to see them again is if they upload and, like, as a dad, I'm not sure that I really want them to. I know it's perfect and all, or at least can be, but I'm not sure I want them to feel like they need to upload to get away from a shit life, and I definitely don't want them to feel like they need to upload just to see me again.
+> Jinzai
+> :   [long pause] I mean, I said that I wasn't really seeing my kids much back then, and I guess that was true enough. I got to see them two or three times a year when I got rotated between crops and had a few weeks of leave. But like...man. I love them. I love them so much. I love them and I miss them every day, just like I loved them and missed them every day back phys-side. I regret...ah, hell. [long pause] I regret that even though they didn't really know me all that well, that they'll never get to know me at all, now, and all I'll have are these memories and-- [long pause] and the only way I'll ever get to see them again is if they upload and, like, as a dad, I'm not sure that I really want them to. I know it's perfect and all, or at least can be, but I'm not sure I want them to feel like they need to upload to get away from a shit life, and I definitely don't want them to feel like they need to upload just to see me again.
 
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-> **Ioan Bălan:** What was the first thing that you did after uploading?
+> Ioan Bălan
+> :   What was the first thing that you did after uploading?
 > 
-> **Magnús Einarsson:** Sleep. I don't know why, but for some reason, right after uploading, I felt like all I could do was sleep.
+> Magnús Einarsson
+> :   Sleep. I don't know why, but for some reason, right after uploading, I felt like all I could do was sleep.
 > 
-> **Ioan:** Did you have trouble sleeping before you uploaded?
+> Ioan
+> :   Did you have trouble sleeping before you uploaded?
 > 
-> **Magnús:** Not particularly, no. At least, I don't think so. I just found a room that I thought would be good and then slept for probably two days straight. That went on for a while, too, I would get up and eat or whatever, try and read a book, and then get so tired that I'd have to sleep again, so I'd sleep another twenty hours.
+> Magnús
+> :   Not particularly, no. At least, I don't think so. I just found a room that I thought would be good and then slept for probably two days straight. That went on for a while, too, I would get up and eat or whatever, try and read a book, and then get so tired that I'd have to sleep again, so I'd sleep another twenty hours.
 > 
-> **Ioan:** Do you still sleep a lot?
+> Ioan
+> :   Do you still sleep a lot?
 > 
-> **Magnús:** Not nearly so much, no, but still more than I did before uploading.
+> Magnús
+> :   Not nearly so much, no, but still more than I did before uploading.
 > 
-> **Ioan:** And you uploaded about thirty years ago?
+> Ioan
+> :   And you uploaded about thirty years ago?
 > 
-> **Magnús:** 2292. March 3rd.
+> Magnús
+> :   2292. March 3rd.
 > 
-> **Ioan:** Alright, thank you.
+> Ioan
+> :   Alright, thank you.
 > 
-> **Magnús:** Why do you ask?
+> Magnús
+> :   Why do you ask?
 > 
-> **Ioan:** I'm specifically looking for people who uploaded in the last 150 years, after they started-- I mean, after they stopped charging to let people upload.
+> Ioan
+> :   I'm specifically looking for people who uploaded in the last 150 years, after they started-- I mean, after they stopped charging to let people upload.
 > 
-> **Magnús:** They used to charge?
+> Magnús
+> :   They used to charge?
 > 
-> **Ioan:** Yes. Was your family compensated for you to uplooad?
+> Ioan
+> :   Yes. Was your family compensated for you to uplooad?
 > 
-> **Magnús:** [laughter] Quite well, yes. It was this big argument between my wife and I. I didn't particularly want to upload, but she said that she'd be able to keep the kids in a better school up North with the funds, and then she'd follow once she was sure that they were in a good spot and that she could say goodbye to them properly and all. We'd heard all about it, and it obviously didn't sound bad at all. It was just...I don't know. It was like being asked to move away forever, even if I knew that she would follow, and that maybe my kids would too, after they had a good life.
+> Magnús
+> :   [laughter] Quite well, yes. It was this big argument between my wife and I. I didn't particularly want to upload, but she said that she'd be able to keep the kids in a better school up North with the funds, and then she'd follow once she was sure that they were in a good spot and that she could say goodbye to them properly and all. We'd heard all about it, and it obviously didn't sound bad at all. It was just...I don't know. It was like being asked to move away forever, even if I knew that she would follow, and that maybe my kids would too, after they had a good life.
 > 
-> **Ioan:** Do you regret uploading at--
+> Ioan
+> :   Do you regret uploading at--
 > 
-> **Magnús:** She never did.
+> Magnús
+> :   She never did.
 > 
-> **Ioan:** I'm sorry?
+> Ioan
+> :   I'm sorry?
 > 
-> **Magnús:** She never followed. She got the kids in their nice school and remarried. I haven't heard from her in twenty-five years.
+> Magnús
+> :   She never followed. She got the kids in their nice school and remarried. I haven't heard from her in twenty-five years.
 > 
-> **Ioan:** I'm sorry to hear that. It must've been hard to hear that from her.
+> Ioan
+> :   I'm sorry to hear that. It must've been hard to hear that from her.
 > 
-> **Magnús:** Oh, I didn't hear it from her. I heard it from one of my kids. Anita. They wrote to me and said that mama had moved in with another man and that school was alright and that was that.
+> Magnús
+> :   Oh, I didn't hear it from her. I heard it from one of my kids. Anita. They wrote to me and said that mama had moved in with another man and that school was alright and that was that.
 > 
-> **Ioan:** I'm sorry. Do you still talk with your children, at least?
+> Ioan
+> :   I'm sorry. Do you still talk with your children, at least?
 > 
-> **Magnús:** I talk with Anita sometimes. They say they might upload in a few years. They say married life isn't what they expected, and now they're in much the same position I was. They have a kid. They're less strapped for cash with their husband's job, but they're still not going to get anywhere. It sounds like they have a much better relationship with their husband, though, so maybe it won't just be the same old cycle again.
+> Magnús
+> :   I talk with Anita sometimes. They say they might upload in a few years. They say married life isn't what they expected, and now they're in much the same position I was. They have a kid. They're less strapped for cash with their husband's job, but they're still not going to get anywhere. It sounds like they have a much better relationship with their husband, though, so maybe it won't just be the same old cycle again.
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-> **Ioan:** How do you feel about that as an option for them?
+> Ioan
+> :   How do you feel about that as an option for them?
 > 
-> **Magnús:** I don't know. Disappointed? Disappointed but not surprised? If they do wind up coming here, then I am going to do my best to make up for lost time.
+> Magnús
+> :   I don't know. Disappointed? Disappointed but not surprised? If they do wind up coming here, then I am going to do my best to make up for lost time.
 > 
-> **Ioan:** What sorts of things will you show them when they upload? What are some things that you like best up here?
+> Ioan
+> :   What sorts of things will you show them when they upload? What are some things that you like best up here?
 > 
-> **Magnús:** There's the things that I like best, and then the things that I think we'll like best together. The things that I like best are the really relaxing things. I like swimming and then going and laying on the grass. I like reading. I like just sim-hopping and people watching. The things that I think we'll like best together are probably some of the game sims that people have set up. They really liked a lot of the spy sims back on the 'net, like the ones where you hide behind walls and sneak through a base and play capture the flag or whatever. I always found them stressful when I did them on my own, but doing one with them, one where we had to escape from a search party, is one of my best memories with them. They have some good ones here that I think they'd like.
+> Magnús
+> :   There's the things that I like best, and then the things that I think we'll like best together. The things that I like best are the really relaxing things. I like swimming and then going and laying on the grass. I like reading. I like just sim-hopping and people watching. The things that I think we'll like best together are probably some of the game sims that people have set up. They really liked a lot of the spy sims back on the 'net, like the ones where you hide behind walls and sneak through a base and play capture the flag or whatever. I always found them stressful when I did them on my own, but doing one with them, one where we had to escape from a search party, is one of my best memories with them. They have some good ones here that I think they'd like.
 
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-> **Ioan Bălan:** What was the most disappointing thing that happened or that you saw after uploading?
+> Ioan Bălan
+> :   What was the most disappointing thing that happened or that you saw after uploading?
 > 
-> **Rosemary Seeley:** I think just how lonely it was at first.
+> Rosemary Seeley
+> :   I think just how lonely it was at first.
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-> **Ioan:** Can you expand on that?
+> Ioan
+> :   Can you expand on that?
 > 
-> **Rosemary:** I mean, when you first upload, you're kinda dumped into a set of common areas until you figure out where you're going to stay or whatever. You can meet up with family members if you have them --- I didn't --- or you can meet up with those of a similar culture or religion --- I'm from the middle of the blandest town on the planet and don't hold to any religion --- or maybe you can meet up with others based around a similar interest. Thing is, I'm really interested in just cooking and chatting and reading.
+> Rosemary
+> :   I mean, when you first upload, you're kinda dumped into a set of common areas until you figure out where you're going to stay or whatever. You can meet up with family members if you have them --- I didn't --- or you can meet up with those of a similar culture or religion --- I'm from the middle of the blandest town on the planet and don't hold to any religion --- or maybe you can meet up with others based around a similar interest. Thing is, I'm really interested in just cooking and chatting and reading.
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-> **Ioan:** Were you able to find any groups for cooking or reading?
+> Ioan
+> :   Were you able to find any groups for cooking or reading?
 > 
-> **Rosemary:** Not at first, which I think is what made it feel so isolating. People talk about System Freeze, and I can guarantee you it's real. [laughter]
+> Rosemary
+> :   Not at first, which I think is what made it feel so isolating. People talk about System Freeze, and I can guarantee you it's real. [laughter]
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-> **Ioan:** How would you describe System Freeze?
+> Ioan
+> :   How would you describe System Freeze?
 > 
-> **Rosemary:** Well, I mean, I was poor as dirt back on Earth. I was a pretty good cook who liked to read mystery novels when she wasn't working. If you're poor as dirt, you're only going to get so good at cooking, though, and you're only going to be reading a certain kind of mystery novel. It's not like I went through a ton of schooling to be reading anything high-minded, and what can I say, I'm a sucker for pulp. So I upload and wind up staying in a communal sim somewhere and every time I go out to look for people who like cooking, it's all these people who are *super* into it and have all this weird experience, so all I can do is take classes, and I feel like a real hick. Then I go out and look for reading clubs or people who like mystery novels, and all I can find are these groups that read what I liked ironically so that they can dunk on it with friends.
+> Rosemary
+> :   Well, I mean, I was poor as dirt back on Earth. I was a pretty good cook who liked to read mystery novels when she wasn't working. If you're poor as dirt, you're only going to get so good at cooking, though, and you're only going to be reading a certain kind of mystery novel. It's not like I went through a ton of schooling to be reading anything high-minded, and what can I say, I'm a sucker for pulp. So I upload and wind up staying in a communal sim somewhere and every time I go out to look for people who like cooking, it's all these people who are *super* into it and have all this weird experience, so all I can do is take classes, and I feel like a real hick. Then I go out and look for reading clubs or people who like mystery novels, and all I can find are these groups that read what I liked ironically so that they can dunk on it with friends.
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-> **Ioan:** I'm sorry to hear that. It sounds really alienating.
+> Ioan
+> :   I'm sorry to hear that. It sounds really alienating.
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-> **Rosemary:** It was, yeah.
+> Rosemary
+> :   It was, yeah.
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-> **Ioan:** You said it was lonely at first. What was it that helped it be less lonely for you?
+> Ioan
+> :   You said it was lonely at first. What was it that helped it be less lonely for you?
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-> **Rosemary:** Oh, you're going to laugh at this. It's really embarrassing.
+> Rosemary
+> :   Oh, you're going to laugh at this. It's really embarrassing.
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-> **Ioan:** You don't need to share if it's uncomfortable, of course.
+> Ioan
+> :   You don't need to share if it's uncomfortable, of course.
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-> **Rosemary:** No, no. It's funny now. Just embarrassing. I started lying. I said that I was an author of a series of books that were mysteries that were also cookbooks. I said I was this schlock author who wrote terrible novels with mediocre recipes and just kept pumping them out as fast as I could under a bunch of different pseudonyms and that I got really tired of writing them and how bad they were, so I uploaded. I started just going to a few of those ironic book clubs and a few of the cooking classes and started talking about these horrible books that I'd written. Weird thing is? People started saying that they remembered them! I guess it is a real genre that people write, so any time someone said they remembered a book I'd laugh and look all embarrassed and say something like, "Oh nooo, that one was so bad! Paid the bills, though." [laughter] Eventually, I kind of dropped the bit, but by then, I'd gotten a few friends who were interested in just cooking normal things for each other, and a few others who actually liked the pulpy mysteries, and that's how I broke through it.
+> Rosemary
+> :   No, no. It's funny now. Just embarrassing. I started lying. I said that I was an author of a series of books that were mysteries that were also cookbooks. I said I was this schlock author who wrote terrible novels with mediocre recipes and just kept pumping them out as fast as I could under a bunch of different pseudonyms and that I got really tired of writing them and how bad they were, so I uploaded. I started just going to a few of those ironic book clubs and a few of the cooking classes and started talking about these horrible books that I'd written. Weird thing is? People started saying that they remembered them! I guess it is a real genre that people write, so any time someone said they remembered a book I'd laugh and look all embarrassed and say something like, "Oh nooo, that one was so bad! Paid the bills, though." [laughter] Eventually, I kind of dropped the bit, but by then, I'd gotten a few friends who were interested in just cooking normal things for each other, and a few others who actually liked the pulpy mysteries, and that's how I broke through it.
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-> **Ioan:** [laughter] That's really clever.
+> Ioan
+> :   [laughter] That's really clever.
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-> **Rosemary:** The one time I've been proud of lying, yeah.
+> Rosemary
+> :   The one time I've been proud of lying, yeah.
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-> **Ioan:** What would you suggest that others experiencing System Freeze do?
+> Ioan
+> :   What would you suggest that others experiencing System Freeze do?
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-> **Rosemary:** Don't wait for it to solve itself, and don't wear yourself out searching. You can just make whatever interest group you want, and if one exists, just be willing to get folded into it. You won't even have to lie. [laughter] But that's just the start. If you don't actually want to keep up with the interest group long-term, that's fine, your only real goal is to start meeting people, then things start to thaw.
+> Rosemary
+> :   Don't wait for it to solve itself, and don't wear yourself out searching. You can just make whatever interest group you want, and if one exists, just be willing to get folded into it. You won't even have to lie. [laughter] But that's just the start. If you don't actually want to keep up with the interest group long-term, that's fine, your only real goal is to start meeting people, then things start to thaw.
 
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-> **Ioan:** How do you feel about the launch project?
+> Ioan
+> :   How do you feel about the launch project?
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-> **Jinzai:** [shrugging] It feels largely irrelevant to me. I'm here to help my kids, and if they upload some day, I want to be here for them.
+> Jinzai
+> :   [shrugging] It feels largely irrelevant to me. I'm here to help my kids, and if they upload some day, I want to be here for them.
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-> **Ioan:** Did you send a fork to go along with the launches?
+> Ioan
+> :   Did you send a fork to go along with the launches?
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-> **Jinzai:** No, I never really felt comfortable with forking. Just me here on the station.
+> Jinzai
+> :   No, I never really felt comfortable with forking. Just me here on the station.
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-> **Ioan:** How do you feel about the launch?
+> Ioan
+> :   How do you feel about the launch?
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-> **Magnús:** I don't care. It doesn't matter, does it? It's just this wild-eyed idea that feels like it doesn't have much relevance. I don't remember having any interest in [said in a singsong voice] exploring the galaxy when I was on Earth, and I don't have any now, so why bother? I don't think anyone else did, down there, either.
+> Magnús
+> :   I don't care. It doesn't matter, does it? It's just this wild-eyed idea that feels like it doesn't have much relevance. I don't remember having any interest in [said in a singsong voice] exploring the galaxy when I was on Earth, and I don't have any now, so why bother? I don't think anyone else did, down there, either.
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-> **Ioan:** Did you send a fork along with the launches?
+> Ioan
+> :   Did you send a fork along with the launches?
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-> **Magnús:** Never forked before. Never got the hang of it.
+> Magnús
+> :   Never forked before. Never got the hang of it.
 
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-> **Ioan:** How do you feel about the launch?
+> Ioan
+> :   How do you feel about the launch?
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-> **Rosemary:** It felt silly, you know? Like this big, grand idea that some folks get, and it was just kind of one of those things that folks do just to say they can, like going to Mars, or creating their own wild sim.
+> Rosemary
+> :   It felt silly, you know? Like this big, grand idea that some folks get, and it was just kind of one of those things that folks do just to say they can, like going to Mars, or creating their own wild sim.
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-> **Ioan:** Did you send a fork along with the launches?
+> Ioan
+> :   Did you send a fork along with the launches?
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-> **Rosemary:** Yeah. I figured, "Why not? No harm in going so long as I can stay here, right?"
+> Rosemary
+> :   Yeah. I figured, "Why not? No harm in going so long as I can stay here, right?"
 
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